| Location | Garden Grove, California |
| Age | 41 years |
| Date of Birth | 09/07/1967 |
| Date of Death | 29/12/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,816 since 31/12/2008 |
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Nels.. An amazing person and against all odds, enjoyed life to the fullest. He loved everyone
around him and treated everyone like gold. He will be missed very much and left us way too soon..
He is our shining star now and will always be remembered and loved for all that he is... Thank you
for letting us into your life and into your heart. RIP Dear Friend!!
"We weren't prepared for you to go
You were too full of life to be
Taken away from us so soon
It's still hard to believe
How much we'll miss your smile
And your laughter in our ears
Your absence leaves a hole in us
We're filling with our tears
You taught us how to be our best
To in the moment live
To never hold a grudge for long
And loyal friendship give
Your presence was a light and joy
We never realized would someday end
Just like the brilliant falling star
That curved 'round heaven's bend..."
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
If all the world was ours to give,
We would give it yes, and more,
To see you coming up the steps,
And walking through the door.
To hear your voice and see your smile,
To sit and talk a while,
To be with you that same old way,
Would be our fondest day.
A heart of gold stopped beating,
Two smiling eyes closed to rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.
Love,
Edie, Jason, Mike & Stacy
8 Months and 4 days ago..
8 months and 4 days ago I lost you. It seems like an eternity since I last saw your beautiful face Nels. Although I am finding the strength to go on in ways I never believed I would be able to, I still miss so many things about the way my life was when you were here to share it. You really were my very best friend and I will always keep your memory very close and hope that you will not be very far away when I need you. I am also very hopeful that you are finding your new world to be the kind of place that shows you kindness and freedom and the kind of love that I know you so deserved but never felt you found on this earth. I am truly grateful for the gifts you gave me and I will always believe that finding each other helped us in ways that we could never have been if we had never met. Rest in beautiful peace until we meet again...
Love you XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Paula
"There's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me."
Gretchen Kemp
7 Months have passed.....
It has been 7 months. I wonder sometimes how I can be getting along without you. We shared so many wonderful times together and the joy you brought to my life will never be taken for granted or forgotten as if it had never been. I came across a collection of poetry that I had shared with you from time to time it has been among some of my favorite over the years. This one stood out to me and I wanted to share it with you now that you are but a memory to me. I love you Nels, I will never let go of the love that we shared and I will always wish that things could have been different for us.
You came into my life
Unannounced
Uninvited
But not unwanted
You came at a time that I needed
A tender smile
A gentle touch
A gentleman's company
You came with understanding
For you asked no questions
With loving care
You healed my wounds
And nursed me to health again
Then you watched over me
Till I regained my courage
To face the world again
And in your wisdom you realized
My need to be free
So you tied no bonds
Now each night
Wherever I am
I think of you
Wherever you are
And in my heart I repeat
"Thank you"
by Javan
No man had ever been so kind to me before you and the effects of your life intersecting with mine has made it possible for me to allow that kind of kindness into my life in all aspects of it. I will always remember you for the love that you brought into my life. The selflessness of your generosity, your giving, gentle, loving, kind ways and the sense of knowing that you brought to me on so many levels. I love you Nels, I will always remember.
Paula
Happy Birthday, I Love You
Many days have passed and as I begin to put the pieces of my life back together I realize more and more of the gifts you brought into my life in the very short time we were together. Today would have been your 42nd Birthday and oh how I wish I could have spent even just one more of them with you. I know that there are many things in life that will never make any sense to me, your death being one of the hardest to understand. I also am starting to realize more and more with each passing day that the changes that have taken place in my life as a result of my losing you have been on a very profound level and have only happened because of your exit from the physical world. I know you are there for me still. I know that you will always be there for me when I need you and I know that a love like ours can never die. Ours was the first real love that I ever knew, and one I will never forget for as long as I live.
For my Nels...
The man is a success who has lived well, laughed often, and loved much; who has gained the respect of intelligent men and the love of children; who has filled his niche and accomplished his task; who leaves the world better than he found it, whether by an improved poppy, a perfect poem, or a rescued soul; who never lacked appreciation of earth's beauty or failed to express it; who looked for the best in others and gave the best he had.
Robert Louis Balfour Stevenson
and Just because :-) One of your favorite quotes by Hunter S. Thompson:
The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.
I Love you Nels... Happy 42nd Birthday Sweetheart
6 Months and 1 day
Things have changed in so many ways over the last 6 months. My life is just not the same anymore and there is still not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and what you meant to my life. I realized after you left, that I loved you so much more than I ever believed that I did. I am feeling better these days, not 100% but getting better. The Girls are heading off soon and there are often happy faces in our home that make me feel much less lonely without you. I still so often wonder how I can find it in me to be the happy lady I was so often after you came into my life but I am honestly trying to find her once again. I know that it was she that you loved so much and I am sure you are missing her as much as she is missing you. I will love you forever, Nels. I will miss you for the rest of my life and always wish that things could have been different for us. 6 months have gone by, an anniversary, our birthdays, and yours is soon approaching. I am so hopeful that you have found peace in your new life, that somehow you have been able to leave the pain of this world behind and start a new life with out the struggles you had here on earth. Sleep in beautiful Peace...
Love you always,
Paula
19TH JUNE 2009
GOODNIGHT SWEETHEART..........SWEET DREAMS...
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LOVE JUDE. X X
Every ending brings a chance for a new Begining
New Beginnings
It's only the beginning now
...a pathway yet unknown
At times the sound of other steps
...sometimes we walk alone
The best beginnings of our lives
May sometimes end in sorrow
But even on our darkest days
The sun will shine tomorrow.
So we must do our very best
Whatever life may bring
And look beyond the winter chill
To smell the breath of spring.
Into each life will always come
A time to start anew
A new beginning for each heart
As fresh as morning dew.
Although the cares of life are great
And hands are bowed so low
The storms of life will leave behind
The wonder of a rainbow.
The years will never take away
Our chance to start anew
It's only the beginning now
So dreams can still come true.
by Gertrude B. McClain
Life isn't about waiting for the storms to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain...
I will always love you Sweety, you will never be far from my heart or my thoughts. I have to believe that many of the changes that are taking place in my life are because you promised me that they would. You had the confidence in me to know that I was strong enough to hold on to you though all the rough spots in our beginning and that I would find the strength inside me to let go of the pain that was brought to my heart though the loss of our physical life together. I know you will always be with me. I know you will always Love me and I am seeing more and more each day that I have gained so much more than I have lost in this experience. I have always been the type of woman that has sought out the positives in life, it is very much in my nature to be this way and more than likely one of the things you loved about me most. You taught me so many things about life, and about letting go of the stuff that we have no control over. And, I know at the end of the day I will never again feel there is anything I can not handle if I only trust that it is possible to handle it.
I will always love you Nels,
Paula
Nature's Wonders...
Have you ever wondered what makes the wind blow?
Could it be our loved ones blowing us a kiss?
Have you ever wondered what makes the stars shine?
Is it our loved ones keeping watch over us while we sleep?
Have you ever wondered what makes the skies cry?
Could it be our loved ones missing us?
Have you ever wondered what makes the sun shine?
Is it our loved ones giving us a warm hug?
Have you ever wondered what makes the ocean waves come pounding to shore?
Could it be our loved ones wanting to touch us once more?
There are so many of natures wonders and do we really know why?
Is there a higher power making sure we always remember the loved one we’ve lost and shall never forget.
Love,
Edie
From the Shawshank Redemption....
I have to remind myself that some birds are just not meant to be caged... their feathers are just too bright, and when they fly away... part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice... but still, the place that you live in is that much more drab since their gone...
I guess I just miss my friend.
Every day I miss you more... I love you so much and I am so lost without you. Love you forever.... P
A Poem I wrote for you just a few weeks after I first met you... You loved it.
For Nels…
He is Beautiful beneath the surface
His skin holds no clues to the purity of his soul
Intersections of his innocence lost but not forgotten
The truth be told you can not measure his spirit
His energy settles into the dawn of a new beginning
Carried upon a horizon of hope restored
A glimpse of what once was treasured
Trust built upon sorrows
Not bestowed upon truth but upon passion
An existence of light in the darkness
He is what I have always dreamed of…
All my heart has ever desired
With him I am found
I will never take his heart for granted
I will bring him peace and show him kindness
Like that of which he has never known
I will forever love him and never leave him
I can promise him a life filled with joy and happiness
Pleasure and pain and the kind of suffering
That only “True Love” can poses
For beauty is only what lies beneath the surface
An intersection of innocence lost but not forgotten
Carried upon a new horizon of hope restored.
I love you nels,
Missing you today and always... love you. P
Remembering all of the beautiful thoughts that you filled me with during our life together. I miss you more each day. Coming up on the 5th full moon since your departure... wishing that you could be here with us and that we could feel that wonderful joy that you brought every moment you spent in our lives. You had so many wonderful qualities in your human form. You always knew how to say the right things, you held us together and made us the family that we had always dreamed of being. I don't know if I will ever understand why your stay was so brief, why you felt that you had to go. But, there is a part of me that does know that you will never leave us completely. The memories that we have of the time spent with you will always remain. Time and space can not change that aspect of us ever if we choose not to let it. The treasures that you gave us were unconditional love and respect. As much as I would like to see things be the way that they were only 4 short months ago... I can not ever be upset with you for making the decision that you made on that cold long day in December. The real tragedy here is love lost and freedom found and the future has so many possibilities for growth and new love. You always told me to trust you, so I am trusting that the decision you made was the best one for all of us and not just for yourself. True love knows no boundries, has no limitations and never dies. This is the love I will always have for you, Nels. Today and always, I will love you forever.
Paula
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